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My Twin

Let me tell ya. I have a twin and she does exists. She comes along with me whenever and wherever I go. As twins, of course we are alike physically because she lives in me. You barely can find any different like you easily can do in other twins, except one thing. She is Shadow and I'm Soul. She has set a war since when we were born. I just realised recently, unfortunately. I was beaten down so many times, I only won, let me tell ya, by finger counts. 
Shadow has a raspy voice and she demands to be claimed that she exists. Now I reveal to you all. Remember, she is the reason I'm getting weak. She sets me in a war with a lot of people in my life without me realising she is the real enemy. Yes, my twin is my real enemy. She stabs me from behind very often. I get anxious a lot with my life and the people surrounding me because of her! She can easily beat me down because she knows me better than all of you do. Because she knows my weakest point.
Shadow is really so powerful, let me tell ya. Don't you dare stare into her eyes because you will be trapped in a provocative scene of hers.

 But...

 Don't you be afraid. I'm still here. 
Now that I know she exists, I dare to fight her.
I'm not sure I can be strong all the time.
But I'm a weak girl with many angels.
They will help me and hold me still.

 Like Maya Angelou I will rise...
Like Sia I will fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry...

 I know that from now on her attack won't diminish even for the slightest amount of it...
I reckon she'll get tougher and stronger, but...
So do I.

 Because enemies can only be fought only when you realise they exist. 
And as long as you have a great enemy within you that you haven't even fought yet, you will be weak from many small attacks outside you.


 

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